Disclaimer: This blog is about my thoughts. They are intended to be honest but they are MY perceptions, even though I try to keep an open mind. Everyone has the right to their own thoughts & opinions though the way they express them should be taken into careful & respectful account. I hope I don't offend anyone ever and if I do it's never personal. That said I hope I don't bore you either, if you are new to my blog, Welcome, if you are returning, as I am returning to posting, Welcome Back. Geez, maybe I've set myself up now to be scandalous and if so I will probably let you down ;) Although a little scandal never hurt anyone, did it?!
I’m not exactly
sure why I stopped blogging but I’ve missed it.
Maybe I was beginning to bore myself!
I was also bummed I didn’t seem to have many readers, and while I don’t
expect my blog to launch me into stardom I would lie if I didn’t secretly want
that ;) Or just a little. I’ve wanted to write a book about my life,
and I’ve got years and years and years of journals to pull from, and while I’ve
been told I write well, I’m not sure my life is THAT interesting. But are those who write about their lives, or
get semi-famous from their blogs have such interesting lives? Or are they just good writers? Anyway, whatever.
I think what I’d
like to get out of restarting my blog is to post my thoughts, stories &
observations, my challenges, successes & lessons (note I did not write
‘failure’, which is something I’m working on erasing from my vocabulary) while
hoping to reach out to others. Maybe you
will relate and find solace or humor in the similarities or maybe you will just
be amused or pause to think of something you might not have or in a different
light. Or maybe you are just bored at
work and want something to read…I know NOTHING about that, not now or from
before kids J I’m definitely hoping for more interaction
from my readers but that may be asking too much. Maybe there’s nothing to comment on…I’ve
often been told I can write on and on and on and while it’s fairly interesting
& amusing, I really haven’t said anything!
Hah, I like to call that stream of conscience writing and there’s a few
books recently I’ve read like that…“The Frog King” by Adam Davies &
“Heartbreaking Work Of Staggering Genius” by Dave Eggers, both Highly!
Recommended! But maybe there IS
something to say or ask and I invite that interaction even though you may
usually just be the peeping follower, those who read FB and Instagram and other
blogs but never reply, or “Like”, making us all wonder if you really are still
out there or not J
See, I’m proving
myself right…what have I really said in all the words above?!
So most everyone
has been hearing about the full moon tonight (gorgeous illustration below) and
all the powers it holds. Some of you
think this is all a bunch of hooey and I’d be lying if somewhere inside me I
didn’t think that too. However, I’ve
learned in life people need things to inspire them, lift them up when they are
down, answer questions, or give them a crutch, etc. I’m not religious but I’m no mystic, though I
respect and do not judge either. I
follow horoscopes and I do want to believe in the powers of the moon…I am a
Cancer after all and “ruled by” the beautiful orb. I believe in the power of our minds and
therefore whatever deity you are following or moon cycle or crystal or totem
animal, or political party, etc. I think it’s you that helps, guides…or doesn’t
help, you. So I do choose to “believe”
in the powers of the moon and nature and animals to guide me. I do yoga and I’ve been trying to get into
meditation to delve deeper into my mind, my own powers. I struggle with my head & emotions daily,
I suppose we all do unless we are sleep walking. I often think my problems are deeper but
maybe more people just aren’t talking about theirs, it’s not a fun topic after
all. I try to live above the material
world but there again I’d be lying…I have a ridiculous shoe obsession, I long
for that new IT bag, I have more jewelry, crap & nice, than I belong
owning, I purchase to display in my home objects that I hope will remind me to
not be materialistic but if I really followed that line of thinking I wouldn’t
need these material objects at all, would I? Though they’re so purdy! We are probably all very alike in that
way. And yet we are all looking (at
least I think most of us are) for inner peace, happiness, strength,
non-attachment to material items, guidance, etc. If you aren’t then you must have reached
enlightenment and I’d love to borrow your map!
Where am I going
with this? This full moon is supposed to
signal a time for us to take back control & power in areas we’ve let go,
let pull us down, been letting us down.
It is supposed to get us in touch with our creative selves, our past
selves, our desires and needs for change, whatever that is or means, to get
back on that road or find the road in the first place. Whether you believe in the power of the moon or
not it’s a good excuse to think about these things now. How does this show up for you? For me it means getting off my summer butt
and getting back to the things I love like my art, my yoga practice, more
involvement in my marriage and children.
I don’t do well without structure and having Tyler
I think I’ve
rambled enough for now. I’d like to
close with a quote by Eckhart Tolle I particularly like and have on a “post
card” on my desk. It goes like this:
“Stressful energy arises when you think some future moment is more important
than the present moment, and the doing becomes only a means to an end.”
May you hear and
honor your intuitions.
Tiffany xo
